Reticence

Reading “Scientific American” on the metro is one of my favorite things to do during my travel to work. It gives me some sort of inner peace. Funny to say that, I always think one must find something to do even just riding a bus for 10 minutes. At times, I would do eye exercise, motioning my eyes up and down or back and forth or in the forms of alphabets…

A week has passed; and the reticence in me also has emerged again. I didn’t even want to speak a word for the entire day. Perhaps I usually speak too much at work, teaching students or helping others. In the book “Memes”, it talks about how one seems not to be able to shut down thought because brain fires neurons all the time. Maybe when doing meditation, one can “freeze” or empty his or her thought. But I have to say I don’t really agree with that argument because I can stay “blank” for more than 2 minutes without any words, events, or anything in mind. Well, one thing interesting is I will hear voice I don’t pay attention to when I think of something…

It is time for me to pay a visit to my parents. I’ve decided to go back this week. What I’ve missed most about hometown is the blue sky and ocean. I know I will feel the streets are big and the air is fresh. A train ride will allow me to sink in and do some personal reflection on my recent research projects and interests. I can’t wait for the week to end…