Sunday, July 16, 2006

Sister Gwen

Dear Sister Gwen,

How’ve you been lately? How’s life treating you in the world of spirit? I had written thousands of letters to you but never gotten a chance mailing to your side.

It’s been three years and from time to time, your smile would pop up on my mind. I’m sorry I never got to say good-bye to you. But I cried when I learned your passing away. Sometimes, I hate myself for not being able to see you for the last time, but then I would think I only want to keep your healthy and happy image in my memory.

It must’ve been a shock being diagnosed of cancer and announced for reaching the end of life. How cruel it was for a young person like you. Tonight I think of you and recall many wonderful times spent in your hometown. I wonder whether you will judge me for who I am. I hope you will not do so…

I suddenly miss the blue ocean in Taidong tonight. I miss seeing shooting stars in the summer. I miss my highs and lows in my school days.

What is it like on the other side of the veil? Is it cold? Is it full of love? I wish I were really an alien, so no one could penetrate my locked heart. Did you know I had buried my heart at the bottom of Geneva Lake before I went to Paris? Did you know I had prayed hundreds of times on the top of Mont-Pelerin? All had been gone for years by now.

Does love really stain? Why did I feel my heart has been colored?

Did you know I wrote a poem to commemorate you? I will survive and continue to be your fighter. I will go on for a PhD and accomplish your part of studies too. Please be happy and keep smiling for all the eternity…

Veil

Sultry summer eve
Sinking as my heart weeps
Tranquil midnight dream
Shattered as lightning whips
Enigma as death
Perplexed mortal man
Past or present
Emperors or civilians
No one could truly escape
Wish I could find an elixir
Sending you to the Promised Land
Tremble not, my dear friend
Albeit everything must end
Pure spirit as yours will forever remain
If the Milky Way had another name
I would engrave your faith
On the other side of the veil
If the universe had another space
I would weave your love
Into a supernova with a smiling face
Written by Jerski Bjorksen

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