Only I Could

“Hurry, Jesse wants to see you now,” said Tom.
I dropped the book in my hands and sprang to my feet and ran like a bolt of lightning.
“Jesse, look at me, look at me!” as I slightly slapped his face.
“T…Teacher, I…I don’t think I… can ma…make it this time…”
“Don’t say that, please. We are about to find out the secret of LinguaNova.”
“I…I miss Sister Anderson, and I...am sorry I…ne..never…learned En..English well…”
Hearing this made tears well up my eyes; yet I tried not to drop a single one.
“No, you can’t die! Remember what we had promised Sister Anderson? We would find out the cure for your stuttering and you are coming to LinguaNova with me.”
“I wi…wish this da..day would co…come but…” said tremblingly Tom as he insidiously fished in his pocket and pulled out a green jade of monkey.
“I…I want to..gi…give you this. This i…is my…lucky mon…monky. I…I hope you…an..and the re…rest of our…gro..group can fin…find out the… secret of prefrontal lobe soo…soon at LinguaNova.” Tom slowly let go of his hand and closed his watery and dark eyes.
“No…please don’t go!” Tears finally rolled down my cheeks and I suddenly apprehended the feeling of shedding tears.
I lifted my right hand, trying to wipe the beads of sorrow, and only realized the jade monkey had turned into a glistening and transparent necklace engraved with a Chinese character-“Love” at the center…


When was the last time your heart was touched by a story, a movie, or someone you loved? When was the last time you enjoyed yourself under the sun, on green grass, or the breeze of autumn? If you know you have only one day to live, will your soul cry like a baby? Will you regret having bickered with someone over trivia things? Will you miss this life on this earth?

I looked around my room as I woke up this morning, pondering whether I should turn on the CD player and put on my favorite music. For some reason, I thought of a bleak past crawling up the screen of my eyes. Only if I could, only if I could, I would rather leave everything behind and travel to the world of spirit without any reluctance…