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Students at the National Taipei College of Nursing asked me to help them with some English quiz materials. They complained how badly their foreign teacher teaches and the difficult assignment they got for the quiz. Well, I checked what they’re asked to read-two articles about SARS and Avian Influenza.

What can I say? Their English teacher sucks! Yet, this is no news at all, is it? I also encountered some lousy professors back in Swiss or the USA. I guess having a great teacher is definitely something one can’t always ask for although we take it for granted all the time.

After teaching three hours straight at the college, I sped to my private student at the other end of the town. Luckily I only had to tutor L. one hour today. Then, I got 15 minutes to have dinner, which I had some soup and tofu. I decided to hire a taxi to save time so as to be able to rest a little before the evening class. As soon as I got into the cab, the rain started pouring. I had a small chat with the driver. He thought I worked for some fashion clothes company. Now that was something new. No one ever told me that before. Either they guessed I did marketing or yeah, TEACHING!!

The evening class went by rapidly and it was surely a blast interacting with students, seeing them glow in class. I forgot how tired I was after the class. Well, still couldn’t call it a day because I had to tutor R Mandarin tonight. We met at Dan Ryan’s like most of the time. It is always fun tutoring R. She is a wonderful girl. While we were talking about Christmas songs, I suddenly had a déjà-vu feeling; but it wasn’t with R but with someone else. It was so weird; but I could see this person via my mind’s eye. Perhaps W’s tarot was right; I will meet this person who is a foreigner in the near future…Yeah, go figure…

I read J’s blog tonight and felt compassionate for her. Well, such is life and I will not blame her at all. I had shed enough tears and cried my heart out. So, I turned my head and decided all must be done with some action. I almost bought another neurology book today but oppressed that impulse because I haven’t finished the one I’m currently reading. What was on my mind tonight was in fact bullshit! I don’t know why I still sent an IMS to W. There is no hope between us at all. So pathetic, really. I took out the ice pick and severely stabbed my frontal lobe in my mind’s eye. I know I had to do that in order to wake myself up. Love stains…

After saying goodnight to R, I walked all the way home. The rain was still scattering in the chilly wind. I have never felt so resentful toward Taipei like tonight. Screw the bus, damn the scooter and all the ugly neon signs!

I wanted to go to Water but my other half said no. It’s over… It really is. I seemed to hear Christmas caroling from SLC, a place I had lived for over two years in the United States. Gosh, if I ever…